Re-Dedication

I'm a born again blogger!  Yes, that's right, I'm here, its' 2011 so once again I'm putting my emotions and thoughts into a bottle and floating them out onto the cyber-sea hoping that someone will find them.  I've been away so long that when I started this post, I was somehow typing it in Hindu!  How the heck did that happen?  Well there were apparently some serious changes made to Blogger in the years since I posted last.  I've been hard at work trying to make a life and since that didn't work, here I am again...Naw, just kidding, this IS part of my life and I should take it as seriously as I do anything else, because it's about me.

There in lies the issue, I neglect things that are for me sometimes, the only things that I do for me are related to my art or writing or slide shows etc.  I will buy software before I get a pedicure, I will buy crafts instead of cologne, I just don't have any interest outside of creating things, that makes me somewhat of a "freak" I know, but it's who I am and after so many years on the planet, I'm finally at a point where I like some aspects of me.  

So now I'm on a mission to start liking the rest of me.  I don't imagine that the artist in me will change, but I'm hoping that my fears and hesitations will go away and take along with it some of my "girth".  I know, it sounds TOO cliche', but there really isn't any other way to put it  I've been LOST, I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know how to get what I want and I certainly don't want to remain this way, so I'm making an valiant, desperate effort to make the major changes that I need to make, the first one is to blog and be HONEST about it. 

I'm a little old school and while I love and embrace technology, I feel like my personal life is the last bastion of security and safety.  I'm essentially putting it all out there for the entire world to see and I can tell you, that in and of itself is a very daunting thing to do. Downright scary! 

Oh how I wish I had the wreckless abandon of a Snooki or a Situation, but  alas I don't. What I do have is a heart that feels there are others, just like me, grasping at any way to get back to who they used to be, and maybe what I have to say will matter not only to me, but to them too. So call me a guinea pig and throw me out there, I'm ready to go!

Thanks for welcoming me back into the blogging fold, "the journey is in full swing"
...dang, another cliche! Oh well, it works for Oprah right?  :-)